in my head

Cheers, Chipo…

I spend too much time in my head. Losing myself in the good and bad memories. They say that practicing mindfulness—being in the present moment—would help. But I can’t seem to make it there. I’m always somewhere else.

Lost, and not looking to be found?

Despite the terrors that I encounter in the recesses of my mind, I’m sickeningly comfortable there. I know what to expect after three decades of consciousness. To create a healthier mindset is too daunting for me—the unknown too terrifying to deal with.

How can I continue to live like this?